Sunday, January 27, 2008

Sunday, sunday, sunday

So I weighed my lowest today, I have lost a total of 7 lbs to date!! I didnt do a very good job this past week... too many nights out partying- which will end soon. Very soon. This weekend was deemed GBOT, "get back on track". So I rested a lot, spent time with my lovely family, had dinner with the girls and even fit in some bar time. That was all Friday and Saturday. Today I layed out, worked out and cleaned up! Theres nothing else really new but I need to get back into my game. This week I will start blogging every day and doing my food diary, etc. I worked out hard tonight and I am waking up early tomorrow morning to run with my Dad.
So nothing exciting, I just want to let you all know that I will be back on track... still trying to meet my 10lb goal by Friday!!! eek!

Monday, January 21, 2008

Gross Day

Ew ew ew. Today was good... stressful day back to work. I just get more and more frustrated with every day that goes by. Maybe this was a sign from God, but yesterday, my Treo broke... straight up broke. I put the battery in and it shows me some cool looking stripes-thats all. I had my old razor and programmed that as my new phone and ordered a new blackberry. I cannot tell you the itch I have to check my email. Its really kind of sickening. I am so distracted even writing this blog because I didn't check my email first. Okay, I'm better now (I just checked it).
Anyway, I am trying to deal with work one day at a time... I feel like 1 day cannot go by without a disaster. I just have to take it out on the gym. I went to lunch with my mom, we had fun and ate appetizers at PF Changs (I checked the caloric info before). I did fine during the day, went home from work and ran. I ran probably a mile and a half- I am still hurting from last week! Ahhh! Then I went home and lifted weights and did crunches. I had to eat dinner fast so I grabbed some shrimp cocktail and an orange. Maria, Brooke, my mother and I went to see 27 Dresses... I decided I would let myself have a treat and grabbed some gummie worms for the movie. I finished a small bag of them and proceeded to eat some popcorn. Yuck...! I ate probably 3-4 handfuls, but it had been SOOOOO long since I had eaten like that it was crazy! (It almost feels good to feel gross about that.) So I had to cut myself off and continued drinking my water for the entirety. The movie was AMAZING- I suggest all of you see it... even you Dad :-). Now I am at home watching True Life "I'm Happy to be fat"... how fitting. I will consider that another sign from God. Point taken.... moving forward from a rough weekend and hard Monday. I promise I will continue on the right track... gimmie some motivation people!

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Its been awhile

Okay, so I know it has been awhile and I am sorry for being a "slacker blogger" (as I have so recently been deemed). My internet and wireless have not been on very good terms lately... leaving my blog as the casualty.
Update on my weight loss... I weighed myself on Thursday and have officially lost 6 lbs (in 2 weeks and 1 day). It looks like I am in pretty good shape for my goal... if I just keep on truckin! This weekend was a little bad... but I was bad within reason. I went to Fort Lauderdale to get away from it all...and definitely enjoyed myself! I didnt have ANY crazy club nights (consisting of high-calorie margaritas and drunk munchies), I was very moderate. I drank a little more red wine than I should have... and participated in smore grilling (post turkey burger...), which ended up being my only sources of diet-affair (okay, and I had TCBY tonight with strawberries and bananas. But thats it...). I worked out a lot last week and really pushed myself Wednesday night... Maria and I ran OVER 3 miles and then lifted and crunched for an additional hour afterward... it felt great! Until I woke up... I ran Thursday morning and felt my hard work throughout the weekend. I am feeling ready to continue my hard work this week... getting ready to run bright and early tomorrow at 6 AM! Ah. I will definitely be updating throughout the week. I promise. So check in soon for more updates...

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Numbers

Its so funny how a number can set the mood... either I could be so thrilled or incredibly upset.
I weighed myself yesterday, after my run, breakfast and 2 bottles of water, so I didn't think it was completely accurate. I decided to weigh myself this morning and I have lost 4 lbs!!! I am so excited! Yesterday morning I ran with my Dad and my sister... I came home and made breakfast, 2 eggs (1 whole, 1 white only) and a piece of whole wheat toast. For lunch I ate a Healthy Choice panini
and cottage cheese. Since I've been pretty busy at work, its so much easier for me to not eat as much throughout the day! I has a handful of peanuts as a snack midday and then made a bad decision to go to Happy Hour after work. I went to Outback with Brooke and had a glass of red wine, but it was happy hour so they were 2-4-1. Then we ended up eating dinner. We split an order of grilled shrimp and I had a salad with grilled chicken, almonds, tomatoes and a (literally) pinch of cheese. I barely used any of the vinegarette dressing I ordered to- which is so exciting since thats usually the basis of my salad! I did so well at dinner (for being out)... but then continued to make bad decisions :-). We then went to Ale House to meet up with Sarah (our co-worker) and her roommate... so I ended up drinking more wine. I probably had 1650 calories for the day... not too bad when alcohol is involved. But hey... I did it for my heart. A glass a day keeps the DR away! I was multi-tasking. As much fun as I had, I know I can't make that a habit anymore... after drinking, all I wanted to do was eat... I kept thinking about food but resisted temptation! Anyway I had a fun night and it was fun to indulge...for a moment.
I didn't feel as guilty about it after I saw how much I weighed this morning. I am so excited that I have los tthat much in my first week! I have 6 lbs to go before my February goal! Maria reminded me that it wont be this "easy" next week and that I have to keep that in mind. On Big Fat Loser (Biggest Loset to the rest of you...) you could tell in their second week everyone barely lost any weight! It was crazy! I am just going to continue to work hard, eat well and not allow myself to get down about a number. But for now, I will remain high and proud of my achievements! My deep appreciation goes out to all of you for your advice, suppport and guidance- you all are amazing!! XOXO

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

7 days straight

Today is the official 7th day of the diet. I have gone 7 days eating well without cheating. Today was pretty easy, I kept relatively busy, working all day and then off to Outback at night. I skipped breakfast this morning and grabbed a Starbucks (non-fat vanilla latte). I went out to lunch with one of the owners today and looked at some property I'd like to move our offices into. Dave, the owner, like the property a lot, which is great news since its super close to my house! We went to Calistoga for lunch and I ate a salad with ahi tuna on it...yum yum. The dressing was a sesame ginger vinegarrette... not the healthiest, but I limited my portion. I ate a banana for a snack through the rest of the work day. Before Outback, I stopped at home to change and I made myself a turkey sandwich on wheat, and packed pudding, cheese made with 2% milk, and a serving of crackers- to prevent me from being hungry at work. I ate the sandwich on the way to work and snacked after my shift on the rest. I didn't eat a single french fry. For those of you in the business, you know how prevelant a french fry is and how often you just pick one of the plate... it became such a routine- but felt so good to not to do! I did drink half of a sprite-worth a whopping 70 cals- ugh... but oh well. I ended the day right around 1400 calories. I am pretty happy with that considering my goal is 1500! No workout today... aside from waiting tables... but I will be up again at 6 to run and I may even look into yoga tomorrow night- theres a facility by my house that does a beginners yoga course on Wednesday nights... Alright, I'm off to rest up for tomorrow- dont forget- tomorrow is another weigh in! Ahhh...pray for me!

Monday, January 7, 2008

Relapse

I feel like I relapsed today. I mean, I didn't eat crappy I just snacked a lot. I ran 2 miles this morning and felt so good! It was a very enjoyable run... then I went home and made an omlet (1 egg & 1 egg white) with turkey and a little cheese. I ate a banana as a mid-morning snack. I got through the morning and went home for lunch. I ate a Lean Cuisine Panini which was soo tasty, but not completely filling. So I paired it with a cup of vegetable soup. Needless to say the first half of the day went very well. In the middle of the day I had a serving of peanuts (170 calories-ah!). I had to stay at work late for a 6:00 conference call... snacked on another serving of peanuts and a baggy of fruit snacks. I didnt get home until 7:30 and had to eat before 8, so I made a chicken caesar salad (with italian-style caesar dressing) for dinner. It was good but I was so hungry that I ate it way too fast and I was still hungry...so I snacked on crackers and cheese. AND THEN I needed something sweet... so I made my strawberries and pudding desert. I ended up eating around 1800 calories for the day... again nothing really TERRIBLE for me, I just ate too much. It sucks... and it sucks even more that I feel like crap about it!
So other than that, the day went well, I got a lot done at work and had a good meeting with the bosses... we'll see how the next year goes. They keep promising me all of these wonderful things... we'll just see if they deliver. It's hard for me to think about starting my own business when I am so frikken loyal to my bosses. I would feel bad to leave them- why do I feel that way!?! Anyway... I am watching the BCS game... so I must focus!! I promise tomorrow will be better... I will work harder.

Sunday, January 6, 2008

The weekend

The weekend went very well! It was the first weekend in a LONG time that I had nothing to do. I slept in on Saturday and had Sean and his friend Austin mow the lawn and weed. It was so cute to see them work hard... I even made them lemonade and gave them money...so cute!!! For breakfast I ate an apple... since I woke up so late. For lunch I ate my salmon leftovers, salad, sweet potato. Maria, the kids and I went to the park in the afternoon and played soccer and football. It was a nice alternative work-out! We were there for almost 2 hours and I was definietly sweating with the kiddies! I made a salad with crab and my homemade balsamic vinegarette for dinner. I ate the best desert after that! I mixed fat-free chocolate pudding with strawberries. It is my new favorite! My dad says I need to have something to "look forward to" and that is definietly it! Saturday was a pretty lazy day...
Sunday I woke up and went to church, ate a banana on the way for breakfast. After church I went home and made a turkey sandwich with whole wheat bread (w/ extra fiber!), pickles and ketchup...I know it sounds gross but you know about me and my ketchup! I layed at the pool for a couple hours, talked to some of you :-) and drank a diet coke. The sun started going down so I went home and had some cherries as a snack. Then I cleaned out my car, did some laundry and got myself organized. It felt so great!! I marinated chicken with lemon juice, a little olive oil and basil while I was doing laundry. I grilled chicken and made it with broccoli. Dinner was great... the grill really locks in the juiciness of the meat... I love my grill (thanks again Dad!)!! I had more pudding and strawberries for desert while I watched tv. Also... I poured myself a glass of red wine with dinner and couldnt take more than 2 sips of it. I had no yearn to drink it because I knew it was just empty calories and not even worth it. I was pretty proud of myself.
I think I am doing pretty well so far. I've been eating very well and it all tastes great! I am so proud that I have put the work into eating healthy food and still enjoying my meals and snacks! I am looking forward to starting the week tomorrow and getting into a real schedule. Maria, my Dad and I are running tomorrow at 6... I plan on running on Mon., Wed., & Fri. mornings. I want to do core, legs and strength training those nights after work. I need to work in 2 more days of cardio... maybe Thursday & Saturdays...we'll see!
So I think I am going to start counting my calories. I know I am eating healthy, but I want to make sure I am not over-eating since I know I eat a lot of fruit and not as many vegetables. Anyway... I will be sure to blog tomorrow...happy Monday!!

Saturday, January 5, 2008

TGIF!!!

Thank God it is Friday!!! Work feels likes it getting increasingly stressfull, but I am trying to handle it as best as possible! I started the morning off with an apple as my breakfast. I was so nervous for today because I had lots of plans and didn't know how I would end up doing... I met Ilana for lunch at Mimi's- I got a veggie burger and fruit (less than 400 calories and soooo great!). We had a nice time sitting out in the cold... its so sad to see all my high school friends leave again. I love when they are in town!
I ran errands near the end of the work day (snacked on a handful of peanuts on my way out the door) and ended up finishing a little early. My Dad and I went for a run in the beautiful weather! I ran and walked for about 20 minutes... then went home. I started up my wonderful grill and continued to do a small circuit while my dinner cooked. I jumped rope, did crunches on the core ball, lifted a little... it felt great to work up an appetite for dinner!
I knew I needed to fill up on my dinner since I would have a night full of temptation! I grilled this lemon-dill salmon (the whole piece less than 300 calories), zucchini, and a sweet potato. (The greatest thing about the grill is cooking an entire meal on it and not dirtying a single pan!) I had a salad before and ended up eating half portions of everything, saving the rest for lunch tomorrow. I still felt really full!
After dinner, I went to Maria's for 'game night' (officially an adult)... we had a couple friends over and they ordered pizza (lovely). I made sure I was full so I didnt even consider it! Once everyone finished the pizza they had dessert. This was an assortment of brownies, ice cream and apple pie. Killer. I brought my own dessert in case I got a sweet craving... so I mixed fat free yogurt, strawberries and a small portion of granola and had a yummy parfait! I still got to eat dessert with everyone and not feel bad about it! During our fun time of games and nice conversation, I ended up drinking a diet coke... something I know I didnt need. Regardless, I think I did a very good job for a Friday filled with temptation!
I had such a blast with Maria, her family, and Drummond (my asst. soccer coach) and his family. What a fun night! We played Wii, ghetto scrabble and uno (long storrry), and spoons! I love hanging out with all of them... hopefully one day I will be able to complete the circle with my man! And it will be 6, instead of 5 ;-). Onnnne day...
Anyway, it was a great day that has lasted a loooong time. Who knows what the weekend will bring, I am sure I will get some workouts in... and try to plan some other great meals and snacks!

Thursday, January 3, 2008

Fired up

Today was a little bittersweet. First, I went to the doctor, because I have this terrible voice... and haven't felt 100% for awhile now. I got a couple perscriptions, one for short term and another long term. It was sooo cold today!! I stopped back at home and got ready (wearing a tutleneck, pants, boots and a long coat!!! Still cold all day!)...I had a coffee and peice of whole wheat toast (with spray butter) for breakfast and then went to work. I dealt with a bunch of crap. For lunch, I ate a salad with a small amount of grilled chicken and my homemade balsamic vinegarrette (sp?). And for a snack, I ate tomatoes with balsamic vinegar, basil and salt...It was so yummy!
I worked throught the rest of the day, which was pretty exhausting. I am getting pretty sick of a lot of the management stuff. It gets pretty overwhelming when I have to manage for someone else. Not to mention, still focus on numbers and sales. Soooo.....I'm beginning to think more and more about my own company. (I know all this is off track...but I'll get there...) I was planning on meeting with my Dad about my budget anyway tonight. We ended set up a savings plan and a couple of goals. If I stay on track, I can start my own company by January 1, 2009! Ahh! How crazy is that?! It's so nice to sit down with him and get his advice on everything. He thinks about the details of everything (I call him my business manager)... probably where I get the realist in me. After that I am all fired up!
I just have to get through the next year working for someone else... egh. I'll just focus on saving money and losing weight!
Back on track...for dinner I ate a weight watchers pasta meal worth 5 points... pretty tasty! I finished it off with a half a cup of yogurt, and half an orange.
I also forgot to mention yesterday, I talked to Amanda and got some of her advice... she's probably one of the best examples of weight loss! She gave me advice about focusing on one thing, one week at a time. For example, this week, I am not eating mayonnaise. So not mayonnaise based dressings, no mayo on sandwiches, etc. Thats my first goal... and I will get used to it and continuously not eat it. This should make a big difference since there are so many calories in 1 tbs! Anyway, I didnt work out today... feeling pretty sore still from yesterday... thanks Lib :-). Tomorrow I am having lunch with Ilana before she leaves. This will be a fun challenge...

Also, I only planned on weighing myself every week... but I know some people weigh in everyday to keep it in their mind... any feedback?

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Baby steps...

So my first day was a success... here are my meals:
Breakfast:
1 Non-Fat Vanilla Latte (they arent that bad for you... per Libby!)
1 Nutri-Grain Bar
Lunch:
1 cup of pretzels (I kinda skipped since I was out of the office most of the day)
Dinner:
2 Cups of Vegetable Soup
I probably didnt eat enough and I was still hungry tonight... so I ate a little crab and a couple pickles.
Tonight after work I went to Libby's and got my butt kicked. We did "boot camp" which is like circuit training that works arms, legs, core and does cardio. You never stop working... it feels so great (but I am sure it wont in the morning!!!)... thanks Libby- you were a great trainer :-).
After dinner, I went grocery shopping with my sister and stocked up on lots of good, healthy food! Then I came home and made a nice salad and snacks for tomorrow! So far today has been good... well see how the rest of the week ends up!

First Weigh In

Let me first begin with....wow. Weight is such a funny thing... you never know how bad it really is until you step on that scale. And as things get worse, I tend to venture further and further away from the scale- probably what I needed most in these past couple months. I can't do anything about that now, except look forward.

Let me just say I weigh more than I should. I am 5'8. Someone once told me average weight for women is 100 lbs for 5'0. Then you add 5 lbs for every inch. That means I should be 140? My ultimate goal is to be 150. But I am not even touching on 'ultimate' for now.
All of that is in the past now. Someday soon I will brag about how I came from here.

*Also, my first "goal" is to lose 10 lbs by February 1st. I know the first part will be the easiest... so I think that is feasible and isn't setting myself up for failure. Only time will tell...

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

My Resolutions

So most of you know that I have a lot of goals. Goals for my career, my family, my health and my overall future. Needless to say, I have a lot of goals for 2008. Among saving money and staying organized, my biggest goal is to lose weight and get in shape.
Since I have turned 21, I have gained probably 30 lbs. It kind of snuck up on me... all of a sudden nothing fits me. My weight has fluctuated a lot since I was about 16 and its time to get it all under control. I figured there was no better time than the New Year!!
So since I think accountability is huge... I decided to start a blog about my adventure through working out, losing weight and possible temptations... I am only giving this to my closest friends who I feel comfortable sharing all these PERSONAL details with.
Tomorrow morning I will do my first official "weigh in" and continue to do weekly weigh-ins on Mondays. I am just going to try eating my best alone, and then possibly Weight Watchers... depending on how well I do without it. I'll keep you posted...wish me luck and keep me in your prayers!